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I went to see a Fashion show today. The clothes were  beautiful, but the atmosfeer was a bit too, I guess uhm 'fashion' too "pretty, pretty, cute, cute'" as Kelly Cutrone (spelling might b incorrect) would say it. Then afterwards, on my way to the library I show this sign in the air that said something like where are you going to heaven or hell ( I assume they were Christians.) 

And it kind of stuck with me, I must be honest and say I don't know about the pictures, but I do felt the thing  (I think) they were gaming at. Who and what are you living for. Life is more than about looks (though i've been too caught up at times.) I do think meaningful, powerful things can be expressed through fashion (I think God does not mind If I express His message through it (the question is ofcourse  do I really.)

ut I feel a bit weary, about the outside part, having to look perfect. I mean I dressed up nice, but not up. And I kinda feel like saying, do we need to really? Why? It makes no sense. Fashion I say is not about looking good (alone) ', it's just the cherry on top. I must admit the clothes were beautiful and even more the colors used, but I'm not sure about the message the designers aimed to send at us (the world.) And many designers do have one, even when I don't agree with it. Chanel, Donna Karen... and probably more... That I think is important to me.

I'll post up some pictures soon...
 

Love
 

I started reading Reading Lolita in Tehran, a birthday present my younger sister got me, and wanted to write again. Not just about the book, but anything I guess. I liked the book, the story of the women meeting, reading and closely looking at the pictures painted by the author of books like Lolita, the great Gatsby and Pride and Prejudice. Like complex surgery they seemed to approach the books. It made me realise somethings about books. About reading and the many ways books can be read.

You see I had heard of the book, before my sister had gotten it for me, and even thought about buying the book myself. In the end I didn´t. I think it was a money issue. Me thinking tot myself i can´t keep buying these books. I wanted to read it because I had bought Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov, but like Maya Angelou´s I know why the caged bird sings I had to stop reading after the first few pages. I still haven´t read it yet, but I will. Atleast I think I will, because I understand it better now.

When I first started reading, I did not know how to step back and look at the book the characters and their ways from a distance. I was shocked, disgusted, confused (why would someone write this stuff) afraid, sickned, by maincharacter  H. not Lolita. I believe I will be able to read it next time I pick it up. I tried to read it yesterday and was not ready yet, but I will be.

You see Reading Lolita in Tehran, made me realised that I needed the book to teach something good. Something wise or hopeful and H. trying to control Lolita, did not sound so nice, but even worse she seemed didn´t seem to hate him in those first few pages and I did not understand why? I needed her to rebel, to be someone apart from H. and his desires, which she was to fullfill. The book made me realise that even ugly looking, sounding tales can be interesting. You don´t have to be H. and you don´t have to agree with each and every character all the time, you can dissent, think about it, form your own opinion // take a step back and read it not only to feel what the characters feel, but be an outsider.

The book reminded me of what I liked about reading. It allowed you to think about lives situation and come close to understanding things you´ve never been through, without having to go through them.

I have decided to keep in mind, next time, that picture H. paints of Lolita, is not who she is, completely truthfull. Her name first of all is Dolores (I had never gotten to that point) but it´s easier to even think about the story without assuming that Dolores was who she was according to him. He might have found that out later on in the book, but I wouldn´t know if his character has really gotten that, since I´ve not yet finished the book, but I will. Soon, soon, soon.
 

Love.